Dear Buddha And Tara

I need you right now.
I'm feeling really down and nothing I do is working right.
I have no damn willpower. I need to lose weight--desperately. I do ok for a few days, but then I binge. I can't seem to stop. I'm like a heroin addict.
My entire life is out of control. I need you to help me bring things back into perspective.
I don't know when it got this bad, but I've never felt like I was captain of my own destiny.
Perhaps its from having a controlling family. I don't know why. But I do know that I need you if I'm ever going to be able to change.
Please bless and guide me.
I am suffering.
Cie/Lily