Saturday, April 29, 2006

The Golden Dawn Blog

The Golden Dawn Blog
A must-see for those interested in the ancient Esoteric teachings.

Friday, April 28, 2006

Spirited Pup

There are a lot of ghosts where I work. It's a retirement community/assisted living/health care center and a lot of people have died here in the 40 years that it's been around. This opens doors between the material and the spirit world. And there are a lot of spirits around here.
However, not all apparitions that one sees are spirits of the departed.
Many times when one sees a spirit in one place, it's sort of a psychic tape that is being played in a continuous loop. Spirits are free to move about the astral plane, and many other planes as well. They have the same type of consciousness that they did when alive. They tend to be drawn back to the place where they died, especially if their death was traumatic. But they aren't going to spend eternity re-enacting the death over and over. I do have this on good authority from a spirit whom I've made friends with. He suffered a violent death and I asked him about what happens to people for whom this is the case. He indicated that while at times he is drawn back to the site where he died, he certainly doesn't go back there and re-enact the event.
"Shit, it was bad enough the first time. Why the hell would I want to keep doing it?" is what he told me.
He always did have a tendency to "potty mouth," in case you were wondering. And since like attracts like, who else would such a spirit come to but the Foul Mouthed Medium herself?!
A place where people see repeated activity by a given spirit gives a good marker for where you can make contact with that spirit. But the likelihood is that you are not actually seeing him or her when you see a given action repeated over and over again.
One of my little astral encounters while at work involved seeing an elderly woman with a walker going by me when I was taking a clandestine nap. Because I haven't experienced this encounter again, I'm given to think that perhaps a former resident was simply walking about the building, visiting her "old haunt," rather than this being a "psychic replay."
Not all apparitions are spirits of the departed. Sometimes we see living people or creatures who are astral projecting.
One of the people who worked in this department before I did had a very sweet little chihuahua that she would bring with her to work at night. I could never do that with my dogs. They are insane dachshunds and would tear the place to shreds!
Last night while catching a clandestine snooze, I was having a seat next to my body. I'm prone to astral projecting but not going much of anywhere when "on watch." I think I'm afraid that if I go too far away, I won't hear the phone or pager if they go off and my physical ears will likewise be useless because the conscious part of my being is skipping through the halls or off on a hike on the Flatirons! To any rate, I saw the little Chihuahua frisking down the hall, paying me no mind! It looked so happy that it just made me happy to see it.
As I haven't encountered this before either, I'm not sure if it's a "psychic replay" or if the pup just enjoyed coming here and thus did so while asleep. Of course there's a sadder possibility--not sad for the little dog but sad for those of us who are still on the material side. Perhaps the little critter passed on and now roams wherever it pleases. Again, this really isn't sad on a cosmic level. But it would be sad for Pup's owners!
As a child I was especially good at seeing animal ghosts. While fully in the body, I have only seen one human spirit in my life. But I can sense them, particularly if their emotional vibration was very high.
Which is why the ones that were troubled in life are drawn to me.
However, it isn't my intention to go into a debate about the pros and cons of dispatching Earthbound spirits. Which I don't do unless they request it or unless they're malevolent. As my closest chum in the spirit realm told me, if I want him to leave all I have to do is say so. But he still has things to do in the Earth sphere and doesn't intend to depart for awhile. Fine by me--I can always use a fellow nut to bounce ideas off! I'm not particular about the fact that he doesn't have a physical body.
I only hope the spirited Chiwee-wee hasn't been doing any ectoplasmic peeing. It would upset George, one of the facility's physically incarnate cats!
Cats, by the way, do see spirits. But that's a story for another time!

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Letting Go ceremony

This comes from the Oracle of the Grail Code card and book set by Amy Sophia Marashinsky.
The Letting Go card was drawn, as it happens, in conjunction with the Time To Let Go card from the Healing With The Angels deck by Doreen Virtue.
The meaning of the card:
Letting go appears before you signaling that the time of holding on and holding firm has passed. This is the time of endings before the birth of something new and wonderful. It is essential to your wholeness to step back and walk away from that which you have been engaged in or dealing with. No more energy, time, love or whatever will have any effect. Only a complete and utter surrender will achieve the best, highest and most loving for all concerned.
Have you fought on for years, believing you will win in the end, if you just continue to hold on, it will all come out right and you will get what you want? Are you scared to let go, afraid that if you do you will lose the little that you have? Have you become accustomed to and entrenched in the familiar way things are and fear what a new situation will bring?
Remember that if something is truly yours you can never lose it. Sometimes taking a break and letting something die and end can facilitate it coming back in a better form. Your energy is best spent grieving the loss, then making space for something new in your life. Whether it's a loved one, job, or other situtation, spending time in mourning helps to create closure and will energize your healing. Once you are really done with your emotions then you will be ready for the new. Trying to hurry the process can only result in being overwhelmed by emotions later, when you least need it. Do it now and be done with it. Then sail on, willing and able into a bright future.

Find a time and a place when and where you will not be disturbed and sit, lie or stand comfortably with your spine straight and close your eyes. Take a slow, deep breath and as you release it see, sense or feel your tension as tight armor covering your body. Take another slow, deep breath into the armor and as you relase it see, sense or feel the armor lighten and begin to fade. Take a last deep breath into the armor and as you release it see, sense or feel the armor vanish. You are now completely relaxed. Let your breathing return to normal.
Focus on your heart chakra, located in the middle of your chest near your heart. Take a deep breath into your heart chakra and as you release it feel a sense of peace. Take a deep breath into your heart chakra and as you release it, feel a sense of ease. Take a deep breath into your heart chakra and as you release it, feel a sense of love. Breathe into that love and let it expand. Breathe into that love and feel it expand until it surrounds you. Now breathe into that love and feel it surround you and hold you. Allow yourself to stay with that until you feel ready to continue.
See, sense or feel the love that is surrounding you and holding you as the presence of Divine Mother. You tell Divine Mother that you are thankful for Her presence with you. She tells you that She loves you and is with you always. She asks you what you need and you tell Her that you need Her help in letting go and grieving a loss. Divine Mother tells you that She is delighted to be of assistance.
Divine Mother tells you that the reason why it is difficult for you to let go is because you are hooked to what you are holding in your emotional body and that is where She will assist you first. She then tells you She will flood your emotional body with love and that will flush out any hooked areas. Gradually you begin to feel the warmth of unconditional love filling your emotional body. It flows into any and all tight, painful and wounded areas, bringing ease and peace, calmness and strength, renewal and regeneration. You melt into Divine Mother's love and feel all suffering cease. You hear Divine Mother whispering in your ear, "You were hooked because you were seeking love. Now you are filled with all the love that you need. Let go of the hook. Become Whole in My love for you." You feel something drop off your body and when you glance down, you see your hooks lying on the ground.
Next, Divine Mother tells you that you need to unhook from some beliefs that are keeping you tied to the situation you are letting go of in your mental body. She tells you that She if flooding your mental body with unconditional love and light and pulling out the sticky-stuck beliefs. You feel the tugging, as the old beliefs are pulled out of your mental body by Divine Mother. When the tugging subsides, you begin to feel the vibrancy of unconditional love and light filling your mental body. It flows into any and all tight, painful and wounded areas, bringing ease and peace, calmness and strength, renewal and regeneration, clarity and insight. You melt into Divine Mother's love and feel all suffering cease. You hear Divine Mother whispering in your ear, "You were hooked because you were seeking love. Now you are filled with all the love that you need. Let go of the hook. Become Whole in My love for you." You glance at Divine Mother and notice that She has a dark, sticky, and gooey blob in Her hands. She blows on it and it becomes a globe of radiant light.
"All losses must be grieved if you are to have wholeness," Divine Mother says. "All grief comes from the personality/ego, not from the soul. You will need to spend time in your soul and time in your personality/ego doing the grief work. Are you willing to do some grief work now?" You say yes.
Divine Mother places her arms around you and surrounds you with Her being. You begin to grieve: crying, wailing, keening, or making whatever sounds are appropriate for you. You feel able to go deep into your grief, thanks to Divine Mother providing a container for you, holding you gently, firmly, compassionately.
When you have done whatever feels right for you, you thank Divine Mother. She asks if you have any questions for Her about letting go and grieving and you ask Her about any concerns you may have. It is time for you to return. Divine Mother says that it would be helpful for you to spend more time with Her during this challenging time. Please connect with Her as often as you want.
Focus on your hands and breathe into the tips of your fingers. Now focus on your feet and exhale through your toes. Take a deep breath and as you exhale, move your body gently. Take a deep breath and as you exhale, if ready, open your eyes.
Welcome back!

My personal observations:
Letting go is often misunderstood. At least it has been by me. I have seen it as pushing away or repelling something I wish to care for. This is sometimes, but not always, the case.
Recently, I have seen the need for different types of letting go in my life.
For over a year now, my son has been involved with various music lessons. Previously, my family helped pay for these. Then I had to take over payment. But with today's gas prices combined with the cost of living, a high mortgage and a medical technician's salary, I can't afford for him to continue. This saddens me. I believe music is an important part of life, whether or not one is a professional musician. My son enjoyed the lessons and I enjoyed taking him and being part of this element of his life. He had no intent of being a professional musician, he just enjoyed developing the skills for his own use. However, to him, the need to cease the lessons is a "bummer." For me, it has caused active grief.
First, I see myself as a failure as a parent and a provider. This is the first thing I need to let go of because such negativity only begets more negativity and leads to depression. Second, I realized that I am holding onto the dreams of my youth, which did involve me becoming a professional musician. I never had the talent and I was thwarted by my family once it became apparent that for me, music was more than a hobby. Somehow, I see letting go of this dream as letting go of the desire to have music in my life, to be around unusual and artistic people who are like me, and to have a fun time. I see letting go as admitting that I'm "old" and shouldn't like certain types of music any more. But I must let go of this erroneous thought. I am who I am and I like what I like. I can't allow others to define this for me.
And I do need to let go of that old dream from my youth. And I do need to weep for it. I do not weep easily. I become angry and swallow my grief. I learned in youth that tears were a sign of weakness.
I inadvertently passed this erroneous belief to my son. Although I never belittled him for crying if he was hurt or unhappy, I always stoically swallowed my emotions and eventually had angry outbursts which, though rarely directed at Michael, probably frightened him as a child. (I also had undiagnosed bipolar disorder, which didn't help.) Recently, Michael (who is now almost 16) revealed to me that it made him angry when my father said things that implied that men shouldn't cry. He told me that it was difficult for him to cry, even when he's alone and feels the need. My son, who is a good-hearted individual, is carrying a lot of anger. I'm sorry that this unfortunate family tradition was passed down to him. I need to let go of this belief. Perhaps if I can, he will see that he can too. But it's difficult for me. I'm afraid that if I feel my grief, it will destroy me.
Also, and this is hard:
My son is now almost an adult. I need to let go of him.
Not give him up or stop loving him. Never do that. But let him make his own decisions. He's always displayed responsible behavior. I can give him my opinions and offer advice. I can't make his decisions for him and it's unfair to use guilt to prevent him from moving away when the time comes. He wants to go to a college in Vermont that is a perfect fit for him. It will teach him even more than I ever could about making good decisions that are right for him. I need to encourage this. While holding him in my heart and always being there for him, I need to let him be free.
I will miss him badly, though we will be in touch frequently, it will never be the same.
What do you know? Two whole tears! Maybe hearts of stone do soften sometimes after all.
I have a dear friend who is also bipolar. She is going through a terrible depression which is more a psychic dark night of the soul than a biochemical depletion. I have given her advice as a fellow sufferer, prayed and done spell work. I can do no more. To attempt to force things to change causes anxiety for me. I shall continue to advise, pray, and cast positive spells. But then I must release the problem to the Divine Healers who are greater than either of us. This does not mean giving up on my friend. It means letting the Universe do what it needs to do.
Then there are things that I need to let go that need to be kicked out never to return. Most of these are negative beliefs. These include:
I'm heavier than I want to be = I'm a fat, ugly pig.
Instead: I'm heavier than I want to be. But I'm working on it. This is a tough battle but it's one I share with a lot of people. If I enjoy the fight, I can win in the end. Even if I never lose the weight, I'll still be a winner.
I'm having a hard time making ends meet = I'm a loser. I'll never amount to anything. I'll always be broke and it will only get worse.
Instead: I'm having a hard time making ends meet = I can find a way to make ends meet and it doesn't have to be one that I hate. I can believe in miracles. I deserve them too.
I'm bipolar = I'm crazy and everyone else thinks so too.
Instead: I'm bipolar = I happen to have this condition, which in some ways makes life difficult but in other ways gives me gifts that ordinary people don't have. I'm unique. And other unique people will appreciate me.
This project hasn't worked yet = This project will never succeed. I'm a failure.
Instead: This project means a lot to me but it's taking a longer time that I'd like for it to succeed. I need to pray for a new approach and I need to perservere. I don't want to give up just before success comes.
These are a few examples of letting go, and of learning new beliefs. Think of some that apply to you.
Love and Light,

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

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Saturday, April 08, 2006

Satan's Been Spending My Money!

Here is a duplicate of an email I sent to two like-minded friends. Yes, they too are insane! ;-) If you are also insane, or if you are simply among those who believe in the Worlds Unseen, you may benefit from the links I provide. And you may freak out a little bit too when you hear about my bank account! Ready? Here we go!
I was looking for a good spell to send blessings to a friendly but troubled spirit and I came upon these.
I haven't tried any of these yet but some of them seem interesting and possibly useful. Some of them in the first list are only good for a laugh and you'll know those when you read them!
These spells are the most interesting to me:
Of course as with any spell we can adapt it to suit our personality, situation or purpose. I was just really struck by these and wanted to share them.
How's this for making the hair stand up on the back of your neck? I called the bank today to find out the status of my account. Now I will admit I'm bad at keeping records and am always going into the hole. But when you hear what my overdrawn balance is, try to keep from freaking out. I about fell over dead when I heard it!
If that doesn't give you the chills, I don't know what will!
Yep...whenever I see the number .04, it scares the crap out of me!
Only kidding--I'm sure you can see why this made my hair stand on end and my blood pressure rise 20 points!
Forget trying not to be superstitious. That's just plain weird.
I'm closing this account and getting rid of the debit card. If I've ever seen a sign that I've got to drastically change something NOW, this is it!
Don't you hate it when you're getting ready to do something and realize that you've brought the wrong items? I was going to do a beneficient sending while at work late at night and when no-one else was around, but instead of the black candle for dispelling negativity and aiding spirit communication I brought the prosperity candle. Argh! Idiot!
I hope maybe my boneheadedness at least gave my invisible friend cause to laugh a little. He can really use it right now.
Blessed Be,

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Only A Memory

Click the title link to see my latest entry at the Psychosphere. Powerful connections are sometimes unable to be logically explained. I've been trying to figure one of these out for a long time. I think logic may be overrated.