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The Aura Colors Test

Click the title link to take the Aura Colors test. Here is how I scored:
(huh! huh! I scored!)
11 in Blue and Lavender
10 in Yellow and Crystal
9 in Violet and Indigo
7 in Abstract Tan
6 in Sensitive Tan and Green
5 in Environmental Tan, Magenta and Red Overlay
4 in Logical Tan
3 in Orange
2 in Red

My Attributes:

Blue: People frequently turn to me with emotional problems and I lovingly and patiently help them.

I have been known to cry easily (though I tend never to cry in front of others.)

One of my strongest priorities is to be in a loving relationship. (This is true although I am not capable of being in a romantic relationship on the physical plane. Love means something different to me than erotic/romanitc expression.)

I feel guilty when I say no.

God (The Powers That Be) and spirituality are very important to me.

I tend to help and take care of others.

I frequently have cold hands and feet. (I thought that was due to hypothyroidism, but, ok.)

When there is conflict, I want everyone to love each other.

Love and people are the most important elements in my life. (The people I love are very important to me.)

I tend to feel the emotions of other people. (Sometimes to my detriment.)

I have difficulty letting go of relationships. (Even when they are toxic as hell.)

Lavender:

I enjoy fantasy and make-believe more than the "real" world.

I am quiet, sensitive and spiritual. (Although I really enjoy making an ass out of myself in a funny play.)

I have a difficult time managing money.

I tend to spend a lot of time alone, daydreaming.

I prefer pretty, gentle and fine artistic things and I am uncomfortable with dirt, bugs and harsh environments. (This is iffy. I am fascinated by 'dark' stuff, but prefer monster or good vs. evil themes to 'slasher' films. I don't mind a bit of dust and clutter, but I despise bugs. I do appreciate beautiful artwork and environments. I would love to go to Hawaii or someplace of that nature.)

I am often forgetful and frequently spacey.

People accuse me of being irresponsible and unrealistic.

I have difficulty dealing with everyday responsibilities.

I am an imaginative and creative thinker; however, I usually have trouble following through on my ideas. (It took me 14 years to finish my first book. What do you think?)

I seem to be out of my body more than I am in it. (I'm in it but not 'in reality' a lot of the time.)

I prefer to work in relaxed, low-stress environments.

Yellow:

It is very important to me to be able to play, have fun, exercise, and be with people. (And it doesn't happen very often.)

I like to laugh and cheer people up.

I have had a tendency to regularly overdo at least one of the following: drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, caffeine, sex, exercise, chocolates, sweets or overeating. (The last four are still demons of mine. But I don't think a little chocolate is bad for you!)

When there is conflict, my first impulse is to run away or avoid the situation.

I need physical exercise or dance on a regular basis. (And sometimes its hard to even get off my ass to walk the dogs.)

I like to be creative, artistic, or work with my hands.

I tend to look younger than my age. (But feel older!)

My feelings can be hurt very easily.

I wish that people could just play all the time.

I believe that sex should be fun. (Although I'm celibate, in my perfect world I certainly wouldn't be! I said 'celibate,' and that's by choice. But I'm not dead from the waist down! For me, sex is only fun if the heart and head are involved anyway. The BIG head, that is!)

I sometimes like to be spontaneous, but without order, I tend to become very agitated.

Crystal:

I often choose to work in quiet, calm and peaceful environments. (Although most of the time I choose to listen to loud, raucous, angry music.)

I am extremely sensitive and can be overwhelmed by being around too many people.

I need to spend a lot of time alone in quiet meditation to replenish myself.

Spending quiet time reading or being in my garden is therapeutic for me.

Physical reality often feels cold, harsh and threatening to me.

I don't always know how to behave in social situations.

My spirituality and my serene inner connection with God (The Powers That Be) are the most important aspects of my life. (One of them.)

Frequently I am unsure of what I am supposed to do on the planet.

I tend to be withdrawn, quiet and insecure.

I often feel I have quiet, inner healing powers. (Which I have never learned how to tap properly.)

Violet:

I feel that I have a message to get across to people.

I have a strong desire to help improve the planet.

I have always felt that I was going to be famous or do something important. (Better damn well hurry if its true!)

I have had a desire to perform to audiences. (Or reach audiences.)

If I had a lot of money, I would travel or become involved in humanitarian causes.

I am very interested in cosmic and universal concepts.

(I can sometimes end up as the center of attention.)

(I visualize future events, but more often I "know" the truth about something and it turns out to be fact, no matter how illogical it may seem. Sometimes it takes a long time for the truth to be revealed.)

I can become involved in too many projects at the same time. (always)

Freedom and independence are major priorities to me. (I am damn sick of dancing to someone else's beat!)

I would much rather be self-employed. (Rather, making money doing what I enjoy. I think I'm too scatterbrained to successfully run a business.)

Indigo:

Waking up suddenly causes me physical pain. (Distress and upset.)

I have difficulty relating to the world in its current condition and often feel that I don't belong here.

I have difficulty relating to my physical body.

I have a highly sensitive physical, emotional and psychological system.

I have no issues regarding sexual preference in others as long as they aren't after kids, animals, or people they're related to. I have some past abuse issues and hate when I have homosexual dreams.

I know that there is a spiritual energy in all things.

I have a strong curiosity about physical reality as it relates to spirituality.

I am extremely sensitive and mostly compassionate. I'm an independent thinker but sometimes tend to fold too easily, so I can't really qualify myself as "strong."

I tend to question and challenge old, dogmatic beliefs and methods. (I still want to moon Jerry Fallwell before I die!)

I cannot be forced to operate against my beliefs, even if it would make others happy.

I feel more creative and spiritually "advanced" than others. (At least than the "dumb driven cattle" which seem to make up 90% of the population. I've met several people whose spiritual and creative abilities completely eclipse mine, and I bow down to them!)

Abstract Tan:

I frequently feel scattered, often forget appointments, or overbook my schedule with conflicting appointments. (I am bipolar!)

I can see all the details that need to be taken care of, but I have difficulty deciding which ones need to be done first. (Probably the ones that I least want to do.)

I am constantly misplacing things. (Keys, appointment book, brain...)

I prefer jobs that allow me to work randomly with all the details of a project.

I get so busy and things get so hectic that I often forget to pay my bills. (I am bipolar...)

I am open, optomistic and very friendly. (I am friendly enough unless threatened. I am a curmudgeon, which overshadows blind optimism. I am not, however, a complete pessimist. I tend to be pretty open about who I am, on one hand, but very guarded on the other.)

I love humanity, but am often uncomfortable maintaining an intimate relationship. (I like people one on one but hate the human race as a whole. I fear people finding out the whole truth about me.)

I usually see numerous solutions to a problem. (But most of them aren't practical.)

I know many acquaintances but have very few close friends.

Sensitive Tan:

Home and family are two of my most important priorities.

I feel that supporting community activities and attending functions such as PTA meetings is important. (I and my son participate in most of the activities relating to his school. Community meetings are important but I would rather grind my feet off with a rasp than go to them.)

Having a sense of security and stability in my home is important to me. (My son has turned out to be a surprisingly well-balanced young man considering the emotional volatility he endured during his early life. Very seldom was he the target, but he saw a lot of fighting between his father and myself, which was always verbally abusive and sometimes physically violent. I have tried to provide him with stability since then. Unfortunately I was not diagnosed as bipolar until he was 14, so he still sometimes witnessed emotional outbursts on my part. Since the diagnosis, he and I have talked a lot and although initially he expressed some anger with me for being unable to control my upsets in his presence, he has since become very calm and rational about the whole thing and we are very supportive of each other.

Security...damn, it would be nice not to have what we need and not wonder which bills we can pay this month!)

I tend to be a patient listener. (usually)

I tend to be quiet, reserved, and often shy.

I believe that service to humanity is true spirituality.

I usually put my family's needs before my own.

I prefer to work in a structured environment. (Kind of. With a J.O.B.* I like knowing what to expect when I come to work.)

(*J.O.B. stands for Just Over Broke.)

Green:

I can be a workaholic and have a hard time relaxing.

I tend to be a perfectionist and am usually demanding on myself and others. (Myself, but not others.)

I need to learn and to be intellectually stimulated. (Or at least to be moving forward.)

I can be strong-willed and tenacious.

Three of my strongest priorities are making a lot of money, accomplishing my financial and business goals, and being respected by other powerful and intelligent people. (I want a lot of money because I don't want to have to worry about money and so I can help others with it. I want to accomplish my personal goals. I want to be respected by the kind of people whom I respect, which encompasses a real variety of people.)

I like things to be organized and well-planned. I frequently write lists. (I said this is what I LIKE. This is not generally my reality!)

I enjoy the challenge of developing plans and ideas rather than doing detailed work. (I tend to be an idea person, but I love doing detailed work if its on a project I'm passionate about. My attention to detail sometimes bogs me down.)

I have high standards in relationships and tend to be bored easily by most other people. (Most "normal" people really don't understand me, so its not likely we'd be hanging out together much anyway.)

People can be intimidated by me. (And I really don't understand why.)

I am often in a hurry.

Environmental Tan:

I enjoy analyzing and measuring the environment.

I am slow to develop friends and usually spend my time alone.

Money is important to me for security and stability.

I am a responsible, dedicated employee who follows directions well.

I am a very private person and keep my feelings to myself.

I prefer stable jobs and reliable paychecks. (But would rather be making money doing "my thing."

When raising children, I would be a rational disciplinarian. (I'm actually pretty relaxed. I state what the rules are and generally don't have to get harsh about it.)

Magenta:

Acting foolish and outrageous is fun and does not embarrass me. (Depends on how much I've had to drink!)

My lifestyle tends to be flamboyant and eccentric. (My true personality is flamboyant and eccentric but I prefer to be a frumpy, middle-aged woman.)

I believe controversy is necessary and that it keeps life interesting. (Depends on who I'm pissing off.)

I like the bizarre and the unusual. (As long as nobody's getting hurt.)

I do not usually conform to society's rules or laws.

Although I love parties and social events, I have trouble keeping friends because my behavior sometimes shocks people. (More like my beliefs sometimes shock the "normals" in this world.)

I enjoy outrageous artistic expression. (As long as nobody's getting hurt.)

I love to learn about new things, but I tend to have a short attention span. I often leave things unfinished. (I am bipolar.)

I feel alone and misunderstood a lot of the time.

Red Overlay:

I sometimes experience intense, often uncontrollable anger or rage. (Which is better since I started taking Lithium.)

My life seems to be a constant struggle.

I consistenly experience conflict and frustration regarding relationships, health, money, and/or career.

I experienced at least one of the following as a child:

Emotionally, physically or mentally abandoned or rejected (i.e. unwanted child, adopted, alcoholic parent, etc.) (My mother really didn't want kids. I could always tell, but she never said so until I was 27 years old. I was cool with it, I just wanted to know.)

Emotionally, physically, or mentally abused. (My parents didn't mean to, but I always felt I could do nothing right in their eyes. Also I was sexually molested at a young age. I have no conscious memory of it, but certain behaviors and physical symptoms, obsessions and flashes in dreams made me realize the truth.)

Life threatening situation before birth, at birth, or at a young age. (I was born slightly prematurely, but that wasn't really life threatening. I could never sleep. Once I didn't sleep for several nights and was given phenabarbitol. This had the opposite of the desired effect. I did not sleep for a week. I was 18 months old. I believe that this was possibly life threatening. At any rate, it was detrimental to my mental health. Even at this young age I was obviously pretty sensitive, fragile, and unusual. I was not a good baby for someone who really didn't want children in the first place.)

Logical Tan:

I do enjoy working with mechanical or electronic gagdgets and machines, i.e. computers, calculators, appliances and electronic games--sometimes more so than people. But I don't know that I would enjoy having such a career.

I enjoy working with details.

I tend to take a long time to make decisions.

I typically follow a regular routine. (I am often in a rut.)

My attitude is "seeing is believing." (It can be when I'm feeling particularly cynical.)

I tend to be a "pack rat," hanging on to things just in case I need them. (I am really terrible about this.)

Orange:

Having a regular job and a family feels boring to me. (The job, not the family.)

I prefer to spend time alone. (Much of the time. But I also get very lonely.)

I prefer doing individual sports and challenges rather than team sports. (I actually enjoy team sports sometimes, but I'm not good at anything. I like to play casually. The opportunity rarely presents itself.)

I enjoy the challenge of going beyond my physical limitations.

I do not need to share my emotional feelings with anyone. (I don't think my feelings are anyone's business, but often I'm dying to share them with someone.)

I am not interested in what other people think about me. (Pretty well true, but sometimes it matters more than I care to admit. People don't need to like me, but sometimes it hurts when they hate me or feel the need to be detrimental towards me.)

People often see me as self-absorbed and aloof. (I'm really not, but I tend to be shy and reserved, which can come off as self-absorbed and aloof.)

Red:

I prefer work that is physical and has immediate, tangible results. (As far as a J.O.B. goes, this can be true.)

I tend to be a loner.

I have a hard time expressing my feelings to others.

I am persistent and hard-working and usually keep the rest of the team going. (I can be a "cheerleader" when needed, but I refuse to wear those dorky little skirts!

Hope you enjoyed reading this novel about me. Or got a little sleep when you nodded off halfway through!

Meet the Authors

I don't have much to say about it here. It will speak for itself.

Dream Interpretation

Click the title link to see an interesting page about dream interpretation.

Fuckity fuck fuck fuck!!!!

Ok, I put the post about the dream back. And isn't that just a super spiritual title for this post?? I'm having a real internal battle with myself right now! It's in regards to the publication of my story...and admitting that a real actual ghost helped me write it. Hellloooo, straight jacket, as far as most of the world is concerned!
The problem is that not only am I sensitive to psychic phenomena, I'm also hypersensitive psychologically. I don't handle criticism well. You have to have a thick skin to be able to do something like this and I just don't. I don't know if you can be a psychic sensitive without also being sensitive in general.
The ghosty dude does not have much of an ego when it comes to getting credit where credit is due. He doesn't care whether or not I give him credit for his part in the book. But I'm hyper-honest and I believe that not giving him credit would be like stealing his work. I've considered publishing the book under a pseudonym but think that's kind of a chicken shit way out. Ah, fuck me! I'm having a fucking psychological breakdown right now! I think it's like getting married, which is something that I would rather be tarred and feathered than do again. It sounded just great until I got down to the wire. Now I've got the first draft entirely finished and am doing clean up work to prepare for publication. I've always wanted to be a published author and frankly the book was only ok before my ethereal friend started making suggestions. He's far more creative than I am on very deep esoteric levels. He can dispute this all he wants but unless he wants to hit me in the head with a real physical object, I will ignore his protestations. He deserves credit, and it's not like it's the first time the Cheesy One has been labeled a nut case, a devil worshipper, or even a necrophiliac. That last one was a remark made by someone who had confused necromancer (which I'm not either. There's a difference between a psychic medium and a necromancer) and a necrophile.
Why do I even give a fuck about being labeled abnormal? It's not like I've ever been mistaken for normal. Why, why, why was I not born "normal?" One of those boring little people who wants a boring little normal job with a boring normal husband, a dog, a cat, and 2.5 kids? But noooooooo! Instead I have to be the empathic bipolar nut case kook who talks to ghosts! And not "normal" ghosts either. Generally they are Earthbound spirits who had troubled lives. There is nothing "normal" going on here, I can assure you! If you were looking for normal, you have now entered the Abnormal Zone. We're mostly harmless in here but we are kind of scary-looking. So I guess if you're abnormal too, you'll be ok with that. If not, we'll let you leave unscathed. We might like making you jump (what's the fun of writing horror if you can't make people jump) but we don't have any real need to hurt anybody.
Oooook, I have officially cracked up now. Please send the nice people in the clean white coats...
they're coming to take me away!
Completely Cie
(Not channeling Lily, the Higher Self at all in this case!)

Too Personal

Howdy.
I did have a post here about a dream or astral experience I'd had, and some of you may have wondered where it went. I deleted it. There are some things that are just too personal.
Peace.

Permission to Freak

There are very few things that people can tell me which will freak me out. I've had too many psychic experiences. Some might argue psychotic experiences. Whatever. I'm too old and tired to argue with you if you choose to believe that I'm plain nuts. That's okey dokey by me. And maybe you're right. If so I guess I have a rather icky surprise coming to me when my end comes. But sometimes you've just got to say "Fuck It" and believe what you believe regardless of what anyone else thinks.
I have a dream blog and perhaps this dream/astral communication belongs there. But it's here. And it's my bunch of blogs, so I'll categorize entries as I see fit!
If you click this link you can read what the Australian aboriginals believe about dreams and the spirits of the departed. I happen to subscribe to their beliefs.
If you click the title link you can read about and see photos of the guy that came to visit me. I belive that we have formed an actual friendship to the point of my actually using his input in the book I recently finished the first draft of, and crediting him for it. Believe what you want but don't be rude, because what I will say next is pretty deeply personal as far as we are both concerned. His poltergeist tendencies are pretty low but I'm not responsible for what happens should you piss him off too much!
He came to me in this dream in his stage makeup and dressed entirely in black. He has never appeared to me in makeup before. He was quite upset and was holding something small wrapped in a black blanket. When he opened it up there was a baby in the blanket. It was cold and still and its face was stark white.
"Please, I'm tired of carrying around the dead baby," he said. "I want to not have to carry it any more. What can I do?"
I didn't know what to advise him. The interesting thing is, I realized several years ago that even though my personality did not splinter as I believe his did, it has many facets. One of these facets is my own "dead baby." I think that every person who was sexually traumatized at a young age has a "dead baby" inside them. It is the trust in others, the dreams of being a "normal" child without a horrible secret, all the things that are lost to those who have been molested. It isn't truly "dead," but it is sleeping so soundly that it appears to be so. It is afraid to wake up.
I told my friend that I have a "dead baby" inside me too and that I didn't know what to do, that maybe one day we would both be healed and it would be too. I wept with him. I noticed that there were cuts on his arms, like there often were when he was alive. I told him that he didn't have to hurt himself any more. He thanked me for being kind to him even though I didn't have an answer. He said that maybe we would figure it out together.
Freaky, yes.
But around here, you have permission to freak!
Peace, blessings and healing to all who suffer.
Lily

The Pineal Gland in Psychic and Psychological Phenomena

Click the title link to read an interesting, in depth article regarding the role the pineal gland plays in the organic functions of the mind and in aiding in or processing certain psychic functions.

The Room In My Soul

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life. You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

My Past Life Analysis from The Big View

Your past life diagnosis:
I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern USA South-Center around the year 750. Your profession was that of a entertainer, musician, poet or temple-dancer.
Your brief psychological profile in your past life:You always liked to travel and to investigate. You could have been a detective or a spy.
The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:You should develop self-love and ability to implant hope into hearts of people. Ambition is not everything. True wealth is buried in your soul.
Do you remember now?

The Force of Creation (Kether)

I posted this comment in response to a post about Intelligent Design and thought it would be well to share it here:
There is a fabulous ultimate positive force that created all souls and even created the various gods and goddessess that people revere. However I wonder: does it abandon us once it has created us leaving us to fuck things up as we have, or does it care and feel our sorrows? I don't think it directly intervenes for it isn't like us at all. That is why it gave us the Gods and Goddesses. But sometimes they don't intervene either. It's all a big mystery that I don't claim to understand but will study for all my life because I really do want to know!
Peace.
In Holy Qabalah, this force is Kether. It is the Sephirah depicted at the top of the tree. It is the Source of All Things. It created all things. All things were created benevolent but some have become corrupt.
Though the force that is Kether is much to be revered, it doesn't directly answer prayers. That is what the Gods, Goddesses and angels who are representatives of the other Sephiroth were created to do. I won't convolute this post with my theories about the Deities and their interactions with humans. I want to focus upon Kether--the Pure, Divine Source of All That Is.
Peace and Blessings,
Lily



















The Qabalistic Tree of Life

Prayers and Positive Energy

I was very touched by this little girl who is facing this serious situation. I saw a Reiki candle charged for miraculous manifestations today and I bought it and carved into it my intention that she may be healed. I put it between my statuettes of Buddha and Tara and prayed to them and to Jesus that she should be healed. Please add your positive energy through your own prayers. The warmth from the heart chakra and the light from the third eye are helpful to imagine but not necesessary. The true positive energy comes from your sincere intent, whatever deity/deities you worship!
Thanks and blessings,
Lily

Please Pray/Send Light

Please click the title link to read about a young lady who needs a miracle and please send your positive thoughts, energy and prayers to her.

The Rainbow

Last Wednesday evening while walking the dogs, I saw one of the most amazing rainbows that I've ever seen. There had been a short cloudburst and when we were walking towards the east I noticed a grand rainbow that extended all the way across the horizon in a gorgeous arc. The colors were very vivid and I saw something that I'd never seen before--the end of the rainbow. I could see it descending onto the hillside and could see the houses through it on the other side. I didn't think this was possible.
It was then that I noticed a second, faint rainbow right above and before the brilliant rainbow. And between the two was a patch of indigo sky. It looked as though if one were actually able to walk through this gateway, one would find themselves in a world in which all their fondest dreams had suddenly come true. I marveled at this and even though I knew I'd never make it through that gateway I wondered: what if it were possible? What if somehow everything I ever dreamed could happen if I walked through the gateway?
It was such a marvelous thought that even when the rainbow faded and my chance was gone, I remained entranced for some time.
There are times when I'm dismayed and feel trapped by my situation. Although I believe that great things are possible there are certain things that I have no idea how to do. On the miraculous level, what if I could somehow go back in time and make it so that a loved one had never died or find a wormhole so that person could be brought back to have another chance? Why does the positive magick I perform take so long to deliver results when those who do negative work often get very quick result? (But always with a dire price to pay in the end, mind. There actually is an answer to this that is the subject for another post.) Why do greedy and selfish people sometimes have so much while decent hardworking people sometimes work hard all their lives just to scrape by? Why are rude, judgmental people often popular?
Sometimes I dismay at having been given bipolar disorder in this life. It makes me wonder if all my emotions aren't simply a reaction given me by my hyperactive limbic system rather than being genuine feelings. Sometimes I look at the amazing mountains where I live and feel as if I am trapped in a great pit. I want to fly away and see the rest of the world. I want to see the oceans, to see the places where other people live, to meet people on the other side of the world. I believe it can come true. But when? I want to do it before I'm too old to truly enjoy it. I want to know the feeling of being free. I don't want to waste any more time!
The rainbow gateway shone on the other side of the police impound yard, which is right behind the mobile home park where I live.
I wonder what would have happened if I had been able to walk through?
Blessed be,
Lily

Ex Witch Ministries

Although I don't agree with the good minister that Christianity is the only true way to salvation/spiritual growth, I very much respect her peaceful approach to presenting the views which she has a strong conviction to. I am interested in presenting all points of view even ones I do not agree with if they are given in a respectful, nonconfrontational way. Whatever your beliefs, it is worth giving this website a look.
Peace,
Lily

Readings Now Available

I am pleased to announce my psychic reading service. Please click the title link to learn more!
Blessings,
Lily

Open up!

You Are 56% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

Lazaris

Click the tile link to access the official Lazaris website. Lazaris is an evolved spirit being channeled by clairvoyant Jach Purcell. He offers gentle, nonjudgmental wisdom and spiritual growth techniques. His teachings can be utilized by persons of any religion. The materials are affordable even on a limited budget. I hope you will look at what Lazaris has to offer!
Love and light,
Lily

A Psycho...I mean, Psychic Survey

Because I have no idea what a "meme" is other than a stupid survey, I shall continue calling them Stupid Surveys.
This one has been floating around awhile and I had been refusing to do it because the fact that I'm damn weird is inherently obvious. So pretty much everything I do is weird. But I had to stop and ask--is there anything about me that people don't necessarily know? Or something that I can scar their sanity with?For the sake of saving space, if not your mind, I will limit my List 'O' Weirdity to 13.
If you have triskedecophobia, I now say to you...MWAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!
And now, the List 'O' Weirdity!
1. I'm claustrophobic. I don't even like taking elevators. I'm not so bad off that I can't get in an elevator but I'm always very happy when it opens up.
2. I'm afraid of the dark. I have to sleep with a night light. No joke!
3. I'm afraid of large insects. When I was 6 years old I once had a dream that a stink bug was crawling up my leg. The next day, a stink bug crawled up my leg. It really freaked me out! Which leads to...
4. I sometimes have precognitive dreams. When I was 3 years old, I dreamed that my mother was pushing a baby carriage and I knew my baby brother was in the carriage. The next day my mother told me she was having a baby. I said it better be a brother! And, so it was!The night before my father had a stroke I dreamed he was lying with his head in my lap looking upwards but not speaking. I said "Dad, I'm sorry. Please be ok." (We'd had a big argument the day before.)
Most recently (and I'm sure I'll lose at least one of my two readers at this point!) I dreamed that I had several people in the examining room at work and the only part of them I could see was their butts. Realize, I work with the elderly. In the department I'm currently in I don't deal with butts as much. The next day I found out that there's talk of eliminating the night shift in the department I'm currently working in. Which would mean the threat of possibly having to return to Long Term Care and work with a hell of a lot more poo again. (Actually, I don't think I can work in long term care again. I developed a severe curvature in the spine from doing that kind of work for too many years and it could only deteriorate further.)
5. I also sometimes know things about people and situations before anyone has revealed the information. Usually it's useless information but sometimes it turns out to be important!
6. Even when I don't have precognitive dreams I'll have free-floating anxiety before an important negative event that disappears after the event.
7. I am empathic. I can pick up on strong painful feelings even if a person says nothing. I can also pick up on feelings from photographs.
8. I believe that I have the ability to communicate with spirits. I don't usually see spirits, although I have seen one human spirit and I used to see animal spirits when I was young. My great grandfather could see spirits but didn't speak with them.
9. I literally have a GHOST writer working with me on my novel.
10. I have done past life regressions on myself. One allowed me to get rid of my needle phobia.
11. I have Type II Bipolar Disorder. I did not know this until I was 39 years old. Until that time I had been diagnosed as having depression with anxiety. None of the medications they used on me worked, in fact they tended to make me worse. The correct diagnosis is essential!
12. I used to get a real kick out of mooning people! I secretly (well, it's not a secret any more!) hope to moon the entire world before I die. Get your wide angle lenses ready, Folks!
13. I really, truly, genuinely look like Miss Piggy.

Miss Piggy's a likeable character though. Even if she's a little arrogant. I'm like Miss Piggy without the arrogance!
Think: Miss Piggy with a crystal ball.
Actually I'm lousy at scrying. I'm much better with Tarot cards.

And now you are welcome to thank me for making you feel normal!

Peace,
Lily

I Vant to be Alone

Here's one of those little personal tests and the results.

Cara, Having Alone Time renews your spirit
In our fast-paced, round-the-clock world, we often forget to schedule time with the most important person of all: ourselves. And for free spirits like you, alone time is the precious commodity you need to relax, refuel, and rejuvenate.Whether it's a leisurely walk around the block or a cup of coffee at a quaint cafe, a solo outing is sure to refresh your outlook and renew your spirit. It also makes the return to daily life and other people that much sweeter. So, what are you waiting for? Make an appointment for some quality one-on-one time!

Often people who like spending time alone are seen as antisocial. It doesn't mean that I hate the world because I tend to be a lone wolf!
My son tells me that he needs one day a week where he's by himself to think. My family thinks there's something wrong with this. I see where he's coming from.
If you want to be alone all the time, it can mean depression. But sometimes it's great!

Here's the link that was at the bottom of the test. Who knows, maybe you could win something!
Peace.
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